I dream of adventure.Even while I am on adventures, I am dreaming of more adventures.. the thrill, the challenge, the pursuit of the unknown, the sensuous, the vibrant! Nothing in this world satiates me more than embarking on an expedition to some unknown destination, or flirting with the edge of danger.
On the days when I feel farthest from mountains, or surf, or danger.. sometimes it drives me near mad. I lose myself occasionally to the daydreams of turbulent waves... or to the make believe stories between myself and a beautiful Brazilian salsa dancer.. I even spend late evenings fantasizing about exotic experiences, while staring blankly at the pornography of Google Maps. Adventure is my weakness.
My sister wrote in my journal a few weeks ago, I didn't read her entry until yesterday afternoon.. but when I did it struck me with honest potency.. her entry reads as follows:
"Contentment
with yourself as you are.
as you were
as you will change.
with others as they are
to rest
to listen
with the moment
to rest
to listen
to just love what is familiar
to enjoy diversity
within your soul
to rest
to listen
to know you are loved
by God.
Joy.
I love living. I love you.
I am fortunate to have such a wise younger sister. Wise words especially for a boy struck with wander-lust. This life is always stunning, even in the places that seem ordinary and predictable. "to rest" - to listen.... the earth cries out to you and I for our awareness, for our silence at times.. just simply to realize how extraordinary we are... we have been.. we will always be.
Andrew Tipton
I wish I could be this adventurous sometimes. My weakness is on the extreme end/opposite of yours. I have adventurous wanderings and imaginations, but the idea of actually going after them...for some reason it feels me with fear or I dismiss it as "not for me." One day I hope to take at least one adventure into the wild, to conquer some of my fears, particularly my fear of water/drowning.
ReplyDeleteSimply put, I understand your desire to not get into the extreme side of your wander-lust (as you put it), but it has its good points as well. Enjoy the positive things that adventure can bring you :-)